Kissing Girls in Alley Bars

written by Finnialla, graphics by Luana Góes

order an expensive drink that you might end up liking

an apology for staring-

across the long bar, all wood and stains, conversations never uttered written on the burls

stood there like a deer in the headlights

adjust your dress, navy blue, pins in your hair, victory red stained lips

your smile could be the only thing i drink from for the rest of my life

i’ll be sated with your first look and devour you whole

finally walk over after the third song, just drunk enough to forget the shame in my body

feel your skin under my lips, long nails dig into my back

the bathroom stall becomes a shrine to your body

your thighs wrap around my head to the rhythm of the music

imagine an entire future with just one taste,

two kids and three dogs living in a big city brownstone with lights in the windows

or maybe a little cabin in the country, where we bake bread and can vegetables from our garden

the wedding ring on our fingers not a shameful secret

no need to exchange pleasantries by the time we crawl into my car

sneak in through the fire exit, away from prying eyes, making love under the moon’s watchful gaze

spend the night, but sure to be out before the sun rises

fix your hair, wipe the smudged makeup, and make in home before your husband wakes up

if the world outside could be a little quieter

and people a little more understanding-

we could walk the world together, in the sunlight, hand in hand

picnics in the park and dinners out on the town

buying you all the fancy things you don’t think you deserve

trying on matching wedding dresses, walking ourselves down the aisle